Utopia

Up late with many thoughts so I thought I'd do some good old fashioned blogging.

I was just thinking about the idea of Utopia and what it means. As you all know, Utopia is simply an ideally perfect place. Typically when people think of a Utopian world, like heaven, they think of this conflict-free, peaceful world where no one is sad, no one is lonely and everyone is socially equal (ie no one likes anyone more/less). I think it's something we all naturally strive towards, but I wonder if there's any merit in that. I mean, it's based on the premise that happiness is better than sadness, peace better than conflict, equality better than inequality... All of which are based on nothing. There is nothing inherently better about happiness than sadness. There is nothing inherently better about peace than conflict, equality, inequality. The only difference is in terms of the pleasure we derive from each (or think we'll derive). And as I've stated before in this blog, it's all in dualisms anyway, ie happiness can't occur without sadness etc. In fact, based on that, sadness is equally important as happiness... So why do we give precedence to happiness?

I realise that, as humans, it's instinctual to strive for pleasure and avoid pain. That's just how we work. No matter what you do, or the reasons you do it, it is ALWAYS for the above reasons. But what I'm going to suggest is that we stop striving for these "Utopias". Not because Utopia is an unpleasant idea, but because to strive for Utopia is to try to escape the very things that make us human. It's not about the "greater good" or "equality for all", Utopia is about an individual escaping their own humanity, and that's it. And yes, I realise that what I've just said is somewhat paradoxical, ie Utopia is pleasure, pleasure is instinct, Utopia is about escaping our humanity. But I don't think it's contradictory, and that's because the predicted pleasureableness of Utopia is completely psychological. Yes, the psychology of it is a natural derivative of our instinct, but it's not essential. I say this because I know the power of the mind.

(this blog is about to get markedly crapper, and a lot more ranty and hard to understand)

The other day I lay in bed after watching Abre Los Ojos (Open Your Eyes in English), which was, funnily enough, one of the most eye opening movies I've ever seen. Anyway, afterwards I lay in bed and I was thinking hardcore about everything... But at one point I just had this huge epiphany: that life doesn't matter. It is, essentially, a dream. I am the only one who surely exists. And if you are all characters in my dream, then why should I be scared of you? When I feel pain, why should I worry? Why strive for some bullshit Utopian world when the world you live in IS ALREADY a Utopia?! That's essentially the crux of what I'm saying. Take hold of your pain, anguish, confusion, anger - whatever - and create from it peace. Realise that you don't need some "idealistic" world to live an idealistic life. Rise above your humanity dammit!

And just so you know, I've been fucking awesome since that moment. In fact, I had a really drug-like experience a few minutes after... But I can't be bothered explaining that lol.

To prove(?) whatever my point was, I'll give you some crappy analogy that I think about lots:
Which looks better: A movie completely in white, a movie completely in black or a movie in black and white?
Mull that one over for a second. Deep.

Point out where I didn't make sense pwease fagios!