R E S P E C T

So... Yeah, it's been like a month or something ridiculous since I've written a blog. I've had absolutely nothing to write about, and to be honest, I still don't. I just wanted to share this amazing quote from Skins. It's actually inspiring, for someone in my situation anyway.

Chris: Do you ever get depressed about... your accident?
Tony: Used to... Who does it help?.. I had everything I wanted, lost it all. Hurts like fuck, but Chris... I'm going to get it all back, piece by piece. What else is there?

It doesn't actually sound as amazing now that I write it here... But that "Who does it help?" part specifically is just awesome. I never thought of it like that. Sometimes I let myself get depressed because it feels good.. feels better than just permanent averageness, you know, like when you can't feel true happiness, it's sort of limited to just a little bit happy. I can't really explain it, but it's a crap feeling, even if it's technically better than crap. That probably doesn't make a lot of sense, but anyway, that line: "Who does it help?" is what I've been trying to get into my head. Last night I went to Heather's dance competition and that was all fine and dandy, but we went to McDonald's afterwards and I just felt crap. I don't know why, I can't figure it out, but I did. I sat there for like 2 hours or something without saying more than a few words, all I wanted to do was go home and cry. When I got home though, I just remembered that and I was just like "Screw this, what's the point?" and proceeded to pwn teh_n00bs at SK. Then today at stage challenge I felt amazing. The little things that would normally tear me apart just bounced off me like little nothings.

Anyway, now with a sort of blog catch-up out of the way... I can go and pwn teh_n00bs at SC with teh_Dali. No lings r gunna mke it thru my D.

kthx