What a Dud

I haven't posted anything in forever, and I still don't have anything substantial to post now...

All I wanted to write was this:
"I refuse to believe evolution, the big bang or any of that crap (because it's completely absurd), but I am going to leave my mind open."

LOL! That was me sometime in the 2007/2008 holidays. The title says all that needs to be said.

But yeah. The reason my posting rate has decreased so much is that it's so much harder to post when you're not Christian! At least post any topics with any depths. I could write about my life, but it is truly boring; all the things that you would expect of a ginga: regular public beatings and wearing wigs in my room at night, pretending I'm not ojed on top.

Gl HF

Humanity

I was just in a situation that made me realise how stupid people can be. I won't describe what happened, but basically I saw how purposefully blind people can be. By that I mean, how people refuse to see their own humanity - that they are simply ego-monsters out to satisfy themselves. I can sort of understand how people can't see that (we're brought up to believe in a much "brighter" reality), but I don't understand how people can blatantly and purposefully ignore minor flaws, when it will bring them no embarrassment and condemnment (or it shouldn't). Don't people realise that everyone else is exactly the same?

Maybe I'm just exceptionally honest with myself... But it doesn't make sense to me that when someone is presented with a situation where they are free to give their honest opinion without judgment, that they would not only lie to their companions, but also delude themselves. Perhaps it's that these situations never arise, but I still don't understand! It's such a cop out to deny that you don't possess such regular "flaws", like vanity, greed and deceitfulness.

And why do people refer to them as "flaws" anyway? If everyone is vain, greedy and deceitful (which they are to some extent), and no one is capable of being anything but, then how can they be flaws? I mean, I know the answers to these questions, but that doesn't mean I'm satisfied with them. It seems to me that humanity far too often puts itself onto a pedestal, deluding itself into thinking that it's capable of ridding itself of these flaws. I guess you could say that it's a very human thing to do, but I truly wonder whether it is. Perhaps it's not a product of our humanity, but rather a product of our society, our morals, ideals - whatever you want to call them. Then again, were we ever capable of producing an honest society? Will we ever be?

To be honest, I'm starting to confuse myself because I've realised that by encouraging a more honest humanity as if it were more ideal, I'm actually giving the quality of honesty (with oneself) a priveleged position, thereby giving other qualities an inferior position, therefore contradicting my other thoughts. Actually, the more I read over this blog the less I know what it's about. Fuck it's hard to have consistent logic! Then again, I don't know if it's even possible to be logically consistent with such illogical opiniony stuff (if that's logical :D).

On another note, why does spellcheck think opiniony is a word? If it is I'll be angry, cause that's a crap word. Although if you rearrange the letters then it's Y Onion Pi. Sort of like in a movie/book where someone might say "Why [insert name here], why?!", but they had food in their mouth so they said "Y Onion, Pi?!". In conclusion, opiniony is a super awesome word.

On the bright side, congrats to me for writing another blog! I think I'll eat this CD. And by eat this CD I mean go to bed and watch Dragonball Z (self-rhyme five!).

If someone understands what this blog is about then comment. Especially on whether opiniony is a good word or not. I'd like to hear your opinion, especially if it's quite opiniony. Or features a good pi reference.

Man I love it when I'm in a rambling mood! Anyway, gl hf, tata.